hello again...

Hello world...
and again... its been a while....
a really long while....
a long while since i wrote anything here...
and a long while since i had time to relax....
seriously.... doing assignments till the last day of class isn't fun at all....
sigh.... cant even remember when was the last time i had any time to just do nothing.....

but now class is over... all thats left is final exams....
this semester seemed so long.....
and then its suddenly over...

hm...
wonder what im doing....
not sure why im trying so hard....
maybe im hoping that im the end it would be worth it..?

anyway... im suddenly so free now that class is over...
not sure what to do now....
study for my finals...? too lazy....
the past few weeks have been like tests and assignments... and more tests....
a never ending loop of craziness....
better enjoy my free time now....

finals is a week away....
hm....

feel like i wanna lie down in the middle of nowhere.... stare at the stars....

what to do now...?
no idea...

Why...?

Why... why.... why......?
Why is a question that returns no answers... only more questions.....
If i ask why? people would ask me why what?...
why... just why.... and nothing else....

if i ask why.... most people wouldnt even know.....
"stop talking in a way that only you understand"..... some would say....
is it so hard to answer why...?
why everything......

why...? just because..?
im not even sure why im asking why....
i just feel like.....
i wonder why....

can someone tell me why...?
i just want to know why....

drifting around....

Lately... theres been nothing much happening....
i feel like im just drifting through time....
floating around aimlessly...
just like a log in the middle of the ocean.....
maybe i've lost my purpose.....
or maybe its something else...

im starting to wonder what im doing actually....
what am i here for...?

life seems to be rather pointless right now....
what am i going to do....?
absolutely no idea.....

maybe i'll just wait and see what happens....
waiting forever...?
hm.....

koi wa sensou

A vocaloid original song...
The character in the video is Hatsune Miku... one of the vocaloid characters...
nice tune.. meaningful lyrics... really like it...

in case u didnt know.. vocaloid is a computer program which sings... literally...
type in the lyrics and the computer will sing.... in japanese though... not sure about the english version..

anyway.. this is just another song i like...

First week passed.....

First week of class has passed...
so fast....

classes are even more boring than ever...
timetable arrangement is like crap....
lecturers are less than interesting...

okay... taking 5 subjects this sem....
first lecturer is a retired professor from Iraq i think or was it Iran..... anyway.. his teaching seems okay but i dont get what im supposed to learn from his lectures...
second lecturer is an indian guy who keeps shaking his head... indian style... no offense of course... he seems like a nice person nonetheless....
third lecturer is a noob-ish one who teaches material science... first time teaching...? think so...
another lecturer is a 'siao kia' who keeps laughing at his own jokes..? not funny at all... and he likes telling world war 2 stories...
and then theres the moral lecturer who i havent met yet... since i didnt attend the first lesson... problems with class clashes apparently... bad planning from the management.....

all these sems lecturers are hardly as interesting as Mr Chan from last sem.... supposed to teach us this sem too... but was replaced by that retired professor guy.... sigh.... kinda disappointed....

first weeks always relaxing.... spending most of the free time between class playing L4D2 with my friends....
probably wont be this free in the following weeks....

and so... college life starts again... kinda sad seeing less and less people progressing together... some fail and stay behind... some just leave....

another year....

Yawn~~
its been a long time since anything was written here....
thats probably cause theres nothing interesting to write about....
its not like im bored or anything... theres quite a lot of stuff to do... but none of them interesting enough....

and then... its the start another year already... time for class to start, stress to increase... and all that...
when class starts, i hope the holidays would come soon....
when the holidays come, i want class to start soon....
wonder why its like that....
in high school i would just want the holidays and forget about class.....

hmm... not sure what i want actually....
kinda living day by day now....
hope something interesting will happen...?
i always say that....
maybe its up to me to decide if anything is actually interesting....

class starts tomorrow.... first time im actually looking forward to class starting...
hmm.......

The world is too noisy.....

People fight, quarrel, scream and shout... even dogs bark at each other....

The world is just too noisy...
People tend to create noise out of nothing.... probably because they have nothing better to do...?
Probably noise is inevitable... an unavoidable product of this imperfect world....
Maybe theres too many people in this world.... more people equals more noise...

Wonder if theres half as many people in this world.. would it be quieter...?
I wish that there was no noise at all... a perfectly quiet world... wouldnt that be nice..?...

maybe if everyone in this world suddenly just died... probably it would be really quiet then....
or maybe i should just pretend that i couldnt hear, see or think... that would probably feel quiet...

any little bit of noise would start to collect and end up in more noise.... and so on....
in the end, there would be so much noise that people self-destruct....
just like a nuclear reactor without its control rods....

i still dont understand why people have to create noise.....
is it fun...?
is it enjoyable...?
is it an obligation...?

sigh.... the world is too noisy...