Its finally here...

Yahooo.... its finally the holidays... forget about finals, forget about studying... its holiday time... for a whole 2 months... how cool is that....

with that... its the end of semester 3 and the end of my first year in college... so fast....
actually is seems more like 3 years have passed... 1 year for 1 semester... but then... whatever...

so.... what to do for 2 months...
my forecast:-
1st week... totally hyper... running around like crazy.. XD
2nd week... less hyper... probably just sitting around...
3rd week onwards... totally bored... wishing that the holidays weren't so long...

though its finally the holidays.... i dont know what to do.... its like theres suddenly nothing to do....

feeling empty.......

hmm.....

speaking of which.. its already 1 year since i graduated from high school... no memories there however...
they say time is slowly ticking away... but it seems like time is quickly draining away rather than slowly ticking....

anyway... lets see how this 2 months turn out....

another explosion....

Ever wondered what would an explosion of a computer power supply look like....?
that happened today....

okay.. i wont go into details.... who knows who's reading this...
so... we had class in the computer lab...and then... out of some indescribable circumstances, the power supply of the computer behind me exploded...
there was a pop, sparks, smoke and everything..... just like a firecracker... as loud as one too... my ears ware ringing....

surely... i was definitely shocked and scared.... just sat there and stared at the thing... seriously... never experienced anything that scary before....

and then... class was interrupted and all that....
wonder why things are seemingly always exploding around me... >.<

....another 3 days more till doomsday...
tick tock.... haiz... still not confident enough....

final week...

Countdown... 1 week more to holiday... which means 4 days more to finals..?... something like that...

anyway... its already the last week of the semester... and my math lecturer still hasnt finished the syllabus yet...
somehow i feel like i have no confidence at all for this sem's finals... ususally i'd think nothing of it... hmm....
first time im worried about finals... worried as in more than usual...

still feel like everything's a blur... feels like nothing is real... hmm....

sigh... even if everything isnt real i still need to study for finals.... A's are getting further out of reach as more semesters pass....

Tests, assignments and more.....

well.... it seems like this blog is gathering cobwebs already....
havent written anything in a while... its either im lazy or i have no time to think about anything else lately....

so... today was the lab test for my electronics subject... even labs need to have tests...
result..? it was far from ok... but rather the exact opposite.... k.o.....
think the tests are easy...? try deriving an equation for a circuit you have never seem before and then using that equation to prove your experiment results.... its kinda like making diamonds out of thin air....
which of course, was quite impossible seeing that the circuits he gives are quite complicated......

wish it was as easy as 'hocus pocus and poof..' and then an equation appears right there.... which according to my lecturer is what should actually happen... except that hocus pocus requires not magic powder but rather brain power....

wonder why he likes us to derive equations so much.... its like every test that he gives involve deriving equations for never seen before circuits... well... maybe given more time i could do that... but time is not a luxury in tests....

and guess what.... my math test is tomorrow... and then i have absolutely no confidence at all.... dont even understand math.... sure die....
besides the math test, theres a presentation waiting tomorrow.... a presentation for that same freakin electronics subject.... hope its better than the tests he gives....

next week is the last week of classes... and then its finals and holiday.... semester 3 passed really fast....

BeForU

A few songs from the group BeForU

Sonic Mixer


Dive 2006


I really like the songs... not sure about their other songs though...

lately life has been rather pointless... more studying and completing assignments....

and then.... i cant seem to recall stuff i did a few minutes ago... not sure if its because of the lack of sleep or is it my memory thats failing me.... or maybe i did nothing at all... thats why theres nothing to remember....

something happened.....?

time seems to be flying again....
now it seems that all i can think about is my assignments.... short sems are really stressful....

its really frustrating when things dont work out in practical... but they work properly during computer simulation....
guess electronics is like that.... stupid practical limitations... guess life is like that... never ideal... and limited practicality....

lately ive been feeling suddenly happy then sad then sleepy.. then everything together.... -_-''
probably the assignment's screwing my thoughts....

o yea... i also burnt an op-amp chip in the lab today... it 'exploded' with a white puff of smoke... well actually it didnt explode but just cracked...... my lecturer said the smoke was poisonous... ack...... theres a first time for everything right...? hope that dosent happen too often....

and then assignment's deadline is this friday.... sigh...

sigh....

Today was rather bad...
Mr demon's test was today.... just terrible.... think im gonna fail this test...
guess i should ask myself "what am i doing?".... i cant even hear my own thoughts anymore...
i know i should have put in more effort to study..... wonder why i didnt listen to myself....
hope that it isnt as bad as i think... but knowing him... its always worse...

things seem so screwed that i dont even know anything anymore.....
wonder whats going to happen now...
probably should think positive... its not like life is over or anything....

but still.... i dont know anymore.....