A new offer...

To all my fellow morons classmates, in accordance to the hard times of assignments and reports, I've decided to start a question and answer service.

Ever had those tough and unanswerable questions? Ever wondered how to live through those assignments?
Well.. fear no more... i'm here to save all those idiots who cant do it themselves help everyone...

So... is there a catch? Surely something this good cant be true... right? Wrong! This new service is absolutely free for the first 5 questions answered. After that, a relatively low fee of $5 per question or $20 per 5 minutes will be charged. It is definately a bargain, theres no better offer than this.

Anything related to assignments, reports or just some stuff that you don't understand, or even personal questions will be gladly helped with....

Interested? Of course you are... who wouldnt be?...

Note : The above was absolutely gibberish and is just a lame joke... lol.. guess it isnt totally untrue... i would help if i can.... dont misunderstand... XD

What now....?

Sigh.... another week has passed... still the same boring things.......
I'm not sure what im doing at all... day in day out.... its like life is set to auto....
So... what to do now.... really dunno what to do..... someone give me something to do.... and dont say assignments...

What does everyone wish for?
What does everyone want?
What does everyone hope for?

Right now... its like im floating around in the vast ocean.. staring straight into the clear blue sky.... hoping for something to happen..... maybe it would rain.... but there are no clouds.... there's not even anyone around...

What would happen... i do not know... though i hope that something good would happen....
Haiz... so damn bored.... not even sure what to write here....

Another interesting observation....

Have you ever noticed? There are two very interesting things that we encounter everyday....
They are Relativity and Subjectivity....

These two things happen even without us knowing about them....
What is relativity? It is even in Einstein's theory of relativity... amazingly simple yet complexly intriguing.....
Subjectivity is another amazingly complex thing... different people would produce different answers....

Combined together, relativity and subjectivity defines our lives and thoughts and even our dreams....
Interestingly, when they help define everything, they themselves are indefinable.... another paradox theory....
These two things usually occur in our thoughts.... relativity and subjectivity....

And so... what we think is actually relative to what society wants us to think and our thoughts are subjective to our feelings....

Its quite intriguing how one person may think that something is absolutely normal when its something totally illogical to somebody else.... logic is also relative and subjective....
Another thing is how each individual views the world.... their views are relative and subjective... when we look at something... it maybe really complicated... but from another viewpoint, its actually laughable... everyone should try it sometime... look at things through another person's eyes....
Maybe then people would understand others better....

These two things are what make this world so interesting.... wont you agree with me?.... that would be relative to what you think right now and subjective to how you feel about this sentence...
muahaha.... you can never escape the laws of reality... but rules are meant to be broken right?....

Nothing much....

Lately... nothing much has happened... rather boring lately....
Still mostly the same routine everyday.... wake up... go to college... come back from college.... sleep... and repeat... with a little bit of game, assignment and anime in between....

The next few weeks would probably be the same... interestingly... when i have assignments to do... i feel bored... no assignment to to also feel bored... guess its the same with everyone... sien-ness...

Define bored.... what is the meaning of bored...?
Bored is defined as having nothing to do or nothing interesting to do... But... that is totally absolutely wrong... even if people have things to do, they may still feel bored...

So... what actually is the definition of bored...?
The word "Bored" should be redefined as not having the right thing to do at the right time....
If you're not doing the right thing at the right time, of course it would be less interesting than it should be....

Well.. thats the case right now... i dont have the right thing to do right now.... and thus bored....
By the way... time seems to be passsing quite fast lately....soon it'll be next week already and the next after that...
Why is that?.. its a mystery.... XD

The mystery of the speed of time.... probably would be explained in further posts... lol...

Looking forward to....

I was wondering... what does everyone look forward to.....
Maybe some people look forward to tomorrow... a new day...
And then... some people look forward to that new video game... or that new movie....

I wonder... what do most people look forward to in life... what goal are they trying to achieve... what end game are they hoping for.... when you think about it, most of the things we do are due to compulsion... its like we have to and must do....

Its quite logical... study for knowledge... work for money... and then what?... why do we do the things we do?... guess it takes time to find purpose.... hope to find it soon though....

on a side note... it seems that a lot of people have gotten sick... me included... its really interesting.... why does water come out from my nose.... and what for.... hmm....
Maybe the weather has something to do with this...been rather hot lately...sigh... the earth's weather system has errors... XD...

College musical....

Just went to a musical drama organized by my college... a college musical drama..
So.... about the drama...

At first i didn't want to go.. thought it would be boring... but in the end i went...with my college friends... it was quite interesting actually...and free too...
Its supposed to be a drama about college life... but it became a comedy for most of us... we were laughing almost all the way through....

The acting was quite good though not perfectly coordinated... but the only problem was that the voices couldn't be heard clearly.. not loud enough... but it seemed that everyone had fun....

After the drama.. or rather comedy show.. my friends decided to have supper at gurney drive of all places.... like... gurney drive on a school holiday.... no place to park... packed with people.. and etc...

Anyway.. back to the topic... my college seems to have a lot of events like these... but most of us never bothered with it... or at least i didn't bother with it...

Guess it was entertaining in overall... a stress reliever after all that cramming assignments and test....

Tests...

After the assignments come the tests.....

Today was the test for Malaysian Studies... Tomorrow is the math test.... and theres that engineering drawing test on Saturday.. why the heck have test on a Saturday... have to go all the way just for a test....

And... apparently the ability to understand things doesn't apply to Malaysian Studies.. or history for that matter... hope i manage to pass this subject...

Anyway... it is said that the math test is going to be very tricky.... very very tricky..... must be careful.. must not make mistakes.... and its going to be 20% of the final marks i think...

Been rather busy lately... feels like theres so many things to do... haiz...

Reality....

Lately things seem more and more unreal to me...
Not even sure why... but there's this feeling that everything i know isn't real at all....

Should i go jump off a cliff just to test it out?.. probably a bad idea...
Nevertheless, hope i can still differentiate reality and non-reality.... then again.. everything seems to be mixed up for me...

Can someone help me confirm this reality? Wonder if life is just like a video game where we put our souls into physical bodies and go through life just for the fun of it.... maybe after i die then i could confirm that.... lol...

But, for now life goes on as usual... or unusual.....

Watching people die...

Today was the day we presented our circuits for the electronics subject...
Well... it wasn't much of a presentation but just explaining how our circuits worked to the lecturer...

Observations from this afternoon....
Most of the students were worried about the presentation...
Some of them were still fixing their circuits...
A few of them were already half dead...
Some of them never got their circuits working....

I got full marks for my circuit.... but i cant say the same for my report....
After the presentation.... some looked at me with envy... amazement... a little hatred... and some were kinda wishing i didn't exist?... just a feeling.... there was definitely hostility floating around in the class....

I'm sorry if i was making anyone feel pressured.... sorry if im really good at what im doing... forgive me but this is the only thing i can excel at.... the one thing i like and put all my heart into....
What should i do....

If i do really well... people hate me.... if i fail... i'd hate myself... so.... what to do....
Either way the outcome is still the same...
Wondering why should things be this way.....

Sometimes i look at the people around me... i can see dead people... people struggling to survive.... people who help others.... and all i can do is smile at them... nothing else...
its really stupid actually... standing there smiling at dying people... sounds like im evil?... i'd try to help... just not sure how to... its like everything i try to do turns out the wrong way....
really dont know why i even try at all....

Should i just do everything for myself and forget about others...? It'd be easier that way....
Should i forget about everything and leave this world behind?... Surely easier than living....

Sometimes i feel sorry for those who try so hard but achieve less than they deserved.... wish i could help...
I have the ability to understand just about anything... but not the ability to change everything....
It definately isnt easy when im standing in this battlefield full of dead people and im the only one alive... seeing people having their self confidence taken away... seeing them try so hard...

No matter what i do... i'd probably just see more and more people start to hate me...
I'm sure everyone else feels worser than me... and this post is definately just inconsiderate...
Hope everyone would feel better after a while... please don't hate me...