Frustrated....

FYI... i just spent almost the whole day at college... doing what?... doing my assignments obviously....

It would be assumed that my assignments would be done already... but on contrary nothing much was done... So... what actually happened for that 9 hours i was there?...
Lets see... I planned to complete at least the lab report there... thought i could ask a few of my friends for help.... turned out they knew nothing... as usual... well.. they helped a little.. but not much...

And so... i ended up depending on myself... who else to depend on if not myself... heh....
On top of that i had to be everyone's "problem solver".... sure... i'd help if i can.... but it gets annoying after a while.... seriously... i'm not some genius who knows everything....its not like you can just put a question into me and expect a miracle answer..... can't these people at least think a little before asking ( no offense )....

At this moment my report and assignments remain unfinished... and im tired....
Gonna go sleep it off.... forget about everything.... and thus the phrase 'Hakuna Matata'.... it means no worries.... and then that song starts playing in your head... haha...

Well... no worries for now... everything will straighten out sooner or later.... though preferably sooner...

Pressure.....

Only a few days to assignment deadline...
And so... the pressure increases....
Pressure is defined as force per unit area... the force would be equal to the assignments... area would be the time frame given to complete the assignment multiplied by number of people doing it.... As the assignments are not group assignments, the only factor to decrease pressure is time... but time is decreasing... but the work is not.... and so... pressure increases....

feels like my heads gonna explode....
All the assignments came at once.... just like a nuclear bomb releasing exponential amounts of energy at once.... who are the culprits? the lecturers, of course...
If life was a sick cartoon... the students heads would have exploded one by one just by the sheer pressure of work.... each time we receive a new assignment... some of the students would blow up.... brains and internal organs would be splattered across the class....

Cant even breathe with all that work pressing on me..... really need to get it done... but no matter what i do things doesn't seem to be progressing well....

Well.. at least one thing came out right... completed my circuit for the electronic subject... a.k.a. EEE
now i just have to complete the damned report...

Already starting to lack sleep.... wonder if i ate pure caffeine i would be able to work faster.....

Sigh.... life is like that... no work no gain.... and thus more work is needed.....

Bored... and thus, random post.....

Bored a.k.a. Sien.....
But then there's a whole lot of unfinished reports and assignments.....
Haiz.... what to do....
Probably need some motivation....

And then... the weather seems to have gotten warmer... a little too warm actually.... damn hard to sleep at night.... some more got no air cond...

Why am i bored? don't know don't care...
But... i am quite sien with a few of my lecturers.... They should actually concentrate on passing on knowledge and not focusing on completing the syllabus... although it is important to finish the syllabus, it wont be of any use if we don't learn anything....... idiots... haiz...

Recently life seems to be a little detached from reality.... life doesn't have to be real does it?
Come to think of it, what defines life and reality?...
What makes something real or not real.... is it only relative? or something else...

Hmm.... i should be doing my assignments instead of writing this.... but what the heck... doesn't take too much time to write a post...

Anyway... life is still the same with a few unreal events included... and another day passes.... week 3 already ended... damn fast...

I should be....

more hardworking....
more diligent....
more caring....
more concerned....
more worried about my future....
more understanding....
more selfless....
more happy....
more grateful....
more productive....
more helpful....

more everything......

There's a whole lot of things that i should be.... what society wants me to be.... what everyone expects me to be...
Maybe I'm just a shell for peoples expectations... what am i really like? i have absolutely no idea.... maybe you all know....
Of course... i should actually be all those things... it would definitely be great...
Sometimes I'm still wondering... what would my true self be like...

They say "be yourself"... but how?... Its not easily achievable when you don't know how yourself would be like....
I usually just adapt to other people... and so... i may act differently at different times.... makes things easier....

Well life is still a mystery... (mine is anyway)

Overload.....

Assignments... Reports... and more...
imagine that for 5 subjects and all with a deadline within 2 weeks....
I might be exaggerating a little.. but there's still a whole lot of unfinished stuff....
And then there's the freakin moronic lecturer who never tells us what to do and expects reports and assignments to be done.....

Haiz.... so tired....

Still... work must be done...
Should think positive... things should straighten themselves out.... i hope...

Too bad there's no overload protection circuit for work... lols....

~Update..~

added a song of the week section on the sidebar...
should be updated weekly...i hope...
listen if you want to.. don't complain or say anything if you hate it...
thats all..

Change...

It has been about half a year since then....
About 6 months since things started to change....
About 24 weeks ago.. form 5 ended.... little did i know, since then many many things would happen.....
Everything began to change....

After form 5 ended... some went to national service... some stayed at home doing nothing..... whereas.. I went to college....
Things will never be the same ever again after form 5 ended...
I will never return to high school.... the endless days sitting in class studying, chatting with friends and worrying about exams and homework finally ended....
Now that i think about it, i actually miss high school... spending the days with friends... spending the nights gaming... waking up to a new day wondering what will happen in school....

Sure... i met new friends at college... but i cant help but wonder...
Staring at the same azure sky... the sky is still the same.. but nothing else is... everyone have started to go their own ways.... drifting further apart...
Most of my high school friends ended up in form 6... guess things wouldn't be the same for them either...
They would probably go through day by day like high school... with the exception that I'm not there with them... well, life goes on....
Sometimes i wonder if i would be missed... or just slowly forgotten... just a memory of the past..

Of course, things will change eventually... nothing remains the same forever...
Wonder why i even bother trying... i should just let everything move by itself... let everything fall into place or fall apart... just let it be.... things will have to change sooner or later...
Wonder if it would make any difference if i wasn't there in the first place... if i had never met everyone... would anything be changed?

All i can do now is just smile stupidly at the days that approach....
The wonderful days are just now a memory....