Not alone but lonely....

So... as the title says... wonder how that is possible?
How can someone be lonely when not alone... sounds like a paradox theory...
Anyway... what it means is that I'm not alone because i have friends.. parents.. family... people around me
With people around me, I'm hardly alone... laughing with friends, chatting away with family... and etc.. normal people would definitely understand...

And then one might ask how can i be lonely if there's always people around me....
The reason might be unreasonable... to most people anyway..(lol.. what kind of reason is an unreasonable one)
Why i feel lonely is probably because most people hardly understand me... sure you can say that you understand me... but i doubt that...
They say parents understand their children best... though, I'm not so sure...
Why would i say that people don't understand me?..
Its probably because people don't share my thoughts... whatever i think is my own... I'm the only person that can understand my own thoughts...
Sure.. guess that makes everyone different... everyone has their own way of thinking...

And then... that makes me wish that i could share my thoughts with someone other than myself... wonder if i had a twin, would he share my thoughts?.. probably not...

So.. it gets a little lonely when I'm the only one who can decipher my thoughts... end up thinking to myself...
Living in my own world... that's quite true.. only me would understand my imagination...
If i could display my thoughts on a screen, it would blow away any special effects imaginable...(haha... well....probably.....)

And so... everyone's thoughts are unique... don't expect anyone to understand the way i think....
Same goes for interests... not many would have the same as me... it makes me special... and also a little lonely.... people who share the same interests as me end up being competitors....(how stupid is that)

On a side note.. its already Friday..
Second week of sem2 is already over...
Most of my friends already started studying also...
Now I'm only living day by day... smiling at the new day and waving it goodbye as it goes away... Staring at a blank tomorrow.... not much to look forward to lately....
So... everyday passes with hardly any meaning....

..... though meaningless.. time still passes.....
...oh well....